Yes I’m poly
Yes I have two fantastic men
I have had a crush on another since high school. I have been in love with him for years now,
But hes not poly, and I’m not going to force him to be.
I just want him to be happy
I just found out he went on a date with a friend of mine (who’s beauty surpasses my own and I’m envious of)
It breaks my heart because I’m definitely not about to get in the way of that. They would make a bomb ass couple.
But he goes through bouts of hanging out with me telling me he loves me, then not contacting me for weeks.
THREE days ago, he called me wanting to hang out again, asking for forgiveness because in my eyes I just felt like a cheap fuck buddy.
Now hes with her, and he said the date went so well.
Time for me to stop talking to him, I can’t be around him and not want to kiss or love him. I can’t do that to him anymore and its breaking my heart. I’m not hot enough for him anyway.
I went on vacation to an AWESOME river where we floated down in inner tubes, and I eventually lost my glasses. (luckily on Thursday when we were leaving on Saturday) But I’m back! If anybody wants to hear more vacation stories just send me an ask!
Pic is me before a tube ride.